We all have dreams. Some of us are brave enough to go after them. And in doing so we have no clue what that will really entail. The last 18 months have been especially rough. As I am trying to make a difference in the world, I have been faced with challenges beyond challenges. Wondering daily where I will rest my head at night. If I will have food to eat. Water to drink. Strength to train. Wisdom to not get nasty when people stab in you in the back. To keep on trusting when everyone around you keeps bailing. And the courage to preserve in spite of everything that is going on around me. And just when I think I see the speck of light at the end of the tunnel, it disappears. And all I can do is cry and ask God to please make the nightmare end.

I was talking with a friend yesterday and he said that strong people are given strong battles. I certainly agree with that. It goes along with the thought that I said early this week. Or last week. I can't remember. "If God will only give you what you can handle, then He must think I am a pretty strong person".

I know that in making my struggles public I will have my share my haters and judgmental people. But I don't care. Because they don't know me. Nor do they know my heart. Only God does.

My only intentions are in helping those in need. Be it kids in Africa. Kids in America. Adults who need motivation & inspiration. And people who are seeking encouragement in their battle.

It's not easy bucking the do-what-feels-good-for-you trend. Want to have ice cream every day? Sure, why not? Want to only think about yourself? Of course, it's me and me alone! "I'm not going to change because I don't want to." So what if I want to eat processed crap, fast food and soda for the rest of my life? And so the story goes. Yes, the challenge is great and the need couldn't be greater. Just how tough it will be to face these challenges, I never knew.

If God has brought me this far, then He must have big plans in store for me. The path behind and ahead of me is filled with boulders, sharp, blood producing thorns, stinky mud and raging waters. Making a difference in people's lives is not an easy job. It is not cake & ice cream!

And I will say this, being positive only gets you so far. While it's better than being negative, it doesn't solve every freakin' problem. I am one of the most positive people out there (if I do say so myself). And you know what? I am still struggling. Just because you are positive doesn't mean everything will work out the way you envision it.

This is real. This is life. I don't know about you, but the road ahead is about to get very bumpy. Hang on. And never lose sight of the hope that has brought you this far.

I have been clinging to this verse. I hope it helps you too.

Jeremiah 29:11

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future."

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